I was sitting here this morning thinking about
time. Why do some people waste so much
time being angry? If not angry then
hurt, bitter, offended, or they hold grudges, sometimes for a lifetime. I am just trying to figure out exactly what
it accomplishes. What is the payoff for
them? Do you know that I can honestly
say there is nothing that I am not willing to forgive someone for if they
apologize to me? If someone hurts you
and they apologize and you do not forgive them, what does that really accomplish? You wait until they are dead and gone and
then you have regrets or guilt, sometimes angry at yourself for not getting
closure with them. Speaking for myself,
I have done and said some terrible things in my life. Things that looking back now I am ashamed
of. I have hurt those I love, even
strangers because I felt justified at the time, or I was not even considering
how I was making them feel. But I work
on bettering myself everyday. My
attitude and how I handle certain situations.
I still mess up, I can still spout off hateful things in the heat of the
moment, but that doesn’t mean I am proud of it.
It doesn’t mean that I am not sorry for causing someone hurt.
The truth is, I don’t want to spend the
majority of my time here on earth being angry, mean, hurtful, bitter,
vindictive, etc. I want to be as happy
as I can possibly be. My true happiness
comes from the happiness I can bring to others.
Not just my family and friends but to strangers that I encounter
everyday. I make an effort to think of
little things that might help someone.
Smile at strangers, compliment them, and just engage in conversation
with them. Sometimes people just want
someone to talk to, to listen. Telling
someone they have pretty eyes or a pretty smile. Complimenting their shoes, petting their dog,
or winking at them! When I am a reason
for making someone feel better, it makes me feel better. Who doesn’t want to feel better?? There are just some people who are negative
from the time they wake up until they lay down at night. They want to complain about the weather, the
politics, the media, the television shows, people who are different from them,
the music, their family, their friends, and the list goes on. They never seem to be happy. Where is the pay off in that? What do they have to look forward to
everyday? Does that not sound like the
most depressing and sad life a person could have??
I was asked the other day if I could have
anything in this world that I could have what would it be besides a cure for
Type 1 Diabetes. My answer came
swift. I would want the ability to have
my daughter, son and grandbabies close to me.
I would give just about anything to see them all the time and kiss their
sweet faces. I would hug them everyday
and just enjoy their presence. I would
cherish every single giggle and every little smile. I would take them to the park and the ice
cream place. I would go shopping with my
daughter and we would get our nails done.
I would have lunch with my son and we would talk about anything and everything. I would not want to waste one single minute
that I had with them. But reality is,
they live far away and probably will always live far away. So what I do is cherish every moment that I
have with them. When we can’t be
together in person, we text, Face time, or keep up on Facebook. I love having the ability to wake up each
morning eternally grateful that I exist.
I am blessed to have a roof over my head, food on my table and an
amazing husband and son to hug every day.
I can still walk, drive, and make intelligent decisions. I can still learn, laugh, and forgive. I can make new friends, and stay in touch
with old ones. I can pet my dog and
cuddle with her. I can visit my parent’s
everyday, my sisters, and take walks with my son. The point of this writing is making the most
out of every minute that we have here on this earth. Every minute that you spend angry, you lose
happiness. Every minute that you spend
bitter, you lose forgiveness. Every
minute that you spend gossiping, you lose positive communication.
Every minute that you spend hating, you lose
Love.
